Tree Huggers V Tree Haters

Jul. 27th, 2025 10:24 am
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Yesterday I had a lovely evening getting to know two of my neighbours (well, non-politically, I doubt living on the DLP side of the street we'd get along politically, but I can't afford the RNC side - I have to be careful about that because sectarianism is alive and well here). They have a dog that Jake gets on very well with and I spoke with them for a while - we got to discussing the trees.

I saw the house in the fall and winter. I loved the trees; it was one of the appealing things about the house. However, as we got into summer it became clear one of the trees seems to be dead, and quite a few of them are tall enough to hit the houses - or if not, they are close. They are also getting all tangled up in the internet lines and putting them at risk.

I've been trying to find the trees' owners for months. They need topped and cut back and one tree possibly removed...

I've found out almost everyone on my street is a nature-hater. Lol. They want to cut all the trees down. All they do is complain about bird shit on their car (they're blaming seagulls* that they say one neighbour is feeding - I've never seen him doing so - or the squirrels ('just hairy rats.') They want to remove the trees so there is no shade during the summer (which I've commented as a benefit that helps insulate our house from the heat during heat waves - and besides that, we do get a fair amount of sun, just not for huge periods.)

So they're trying to gun for getting all of the trees removed. One of them says all the trees are actually dying due to a disease anyway, but, obviously not a reliable narrator.

Ugh!

The only thing is, the owners of the trees - it turns out it's a utility company - apparently have no intention of taking responsibility for them. They are currently a liability to the building and for insurance purposes. The dead one is right behind my house so my house is probably most at risk of being hit by a falling tree.

*I can't believe they hate squirrels - my dog loves watching them - and honestly, whoever heard or saw a seagull perching in a tree. They land on the roofs! You're just going to make it easier for the man to attract seagulls from the other side of the river if you remove all the trees with no intention of replanting. Not to mention the additional stress of heatwaves, not to mention the additional noise when you now get the noise from the houses on the other side of the river with no muffling at all from the rows of trees on either side of the river bank.




The TL;DR: If the utility company doesn't take responsibility for these trees, I have to play 'the enemy of my enemy is my friend' because our house is at risk from one of these trees. All those trees are a risk if they're not being maintained so the only option is to take them all down.

I suppose, if they successfully get all the trees removed, when they whinge in a few years that it's too hot (given every year has been the new 'hottest year on record' that shouldn't be long), I can point out that trees reduce heat by 8-10F (after looking what that is in Celsius) and that perhaps we should plant some new healthy trees out back. Maybe some fruit trees since groceries keep going up in price. I wanted to plant a fruit tree or two.




The guy was also telling me I have to keep my hydrangea, to which I gave a flat 'no.' If you want a hydrangea plant it in your own garden, I personally got my garden for my dog and want to turn it into a small agility field. Which they're welcome to share with their dogs if they like, because they all got on so well, but I'm not keeping the hydrangea.




On another note - this type of thing is why I 100% believe in overpopulation. People talking about how the world could theoretically sustain all of us, when none of us want to live the same way and a lot of people if they had a choice would cut all the trees and live in an inauthentic, non-endemic concrete jungle with tightly manicured grass lawns. Even if corporations states dissolved their assets 100% into re-organising into a development and transition to a circular economy - you have a lot of people that just freaking hate nature. They would literally destroy the world into oblivion and you can only manage it by keeping the population low enough that they can choose to live in areas that minimise their damage. Fortunately, this street is a good example of that - it's just two rows of trees in an otherwise very urban environment (in fact, I think the river itself has been reinforced with concrete at the banks to keep it together from development.) So it's not exactly a major ecological loss. But it's exactly the sort of reason I don't believe humans will ever be sustainable in tens of billions. Maybe a couple billion. (I don't believe in eco-fascism though - my train of thought is you fight for human rights because people with low infant mortality rates, living in peace-time, with free access to shelter, healthcare, education, etc. - well, they tend to have less babies so the problem sorts itself.)

I suppose my only other real question is, if you hate nature so much, why are you living right down the street from a country park and up the street from another?

I need to get a fence with good privacy because they're not going to be a fan of my native-plants, 'Let it Grow May' and 'Let it alone June/July' to help pollinators.




I know that sounds like a huge complaint, but they are actually lovely people otherwise and since the trees aren't being maintained it's not such a big deal as long as they back off trying to police how I landscape my garden when I get around to it. Lol. If they make it an issue I take out my hydrangea and gear the garden toward my dog, that will be another story. Here I am planning a seesaw and hoops/tunnels with a few crops and they are trying to tell me I need to keep a tree smack dab in the middle of my garden making it impossible to do anything with the space.

My New Wrist

Jul. 25th, 2025 09:18 pm
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My wrist is sore and stiff out of the cast, so life hasn't been much different than life in the cast (though I have been trying to prepare food exclusively at home again, but it hurts to grab pots, pans, or handle the cutlery). I've been told that should hopefully settle down over the next few days or weeks.

My next Fracture Clinic appointment is in three weeks. I'm not even sure why I'm going again if it's supposedly healed now, unless they're assessing if I need additional physical therapy, because this bone didn't have any weird healing or calcifications going on according to the doctor. But I need to call them out on this appointment - I absolutely can't keep going to the hospital mid-day on a Monday because I end up taking a whole day of annual leave, and I hardly have any left, because my Annual Leave kept being used up in PT, moving, and legal fees last year through some of this year. (I can't believe I ever used to cope on 0-4 days annual leave, lol. Though to be fair, you could technically take as much unpaid time off as you wanted in those jobs.)

I was going to try to start tutoring to get better at my maths/science knowledge for an access programme, but frankly, I don't have the money until I recuperate from the broken arm. And since my wrist is so stiff and sore anyway, I guess I'll just let the people I was going to hire know that I'm going to put it off for now.





Jake's ears have been doing really well since that Zymox Otic with hydrocortisone. I mean really well - so well I want to get more for next time, I am using the drops, and want to get the shampoo and conditioner. It's expensive though so I think at best I'll be able to do is get one of the items per month or every-other month. Since those special drops for irritated ears only last about 7 days, and I can possibly find and try his prescription shampoo this month, if I have any money left over I'm going to restock those drops. Hopefully he won't need them and I can make it through to purchasing a back-up stock.

I am going to try to do that with all of his supplies and build a back-up 6-12 months in any bill that would affect my credit score after managing to break a bone last year and this year. Because damn. I don't know how long that will take but it is currently goals.

Since he has to go in for immunotherapy every four weeks now anyway, I've moved him back onto Cytopoint. It has less potential side effects than Apoquel, and the whole point for Apoquel was to reduce veterinarian trips so I could work on his stranger danger at the vet. (Also, now I won't lose track of his medication, which often gets moved around the kitchen when we're cooking. With him back on the Cytopoint, all I need to keep track of is the Reconcile. Easy peasy.




Speaking of goals, I think currently my goals are mostly to either find a full-time work from home job, or get a job at a very specific institution that has an office within five minutes of my house by bicycle.

I like my job. I like my colleagues. I like my benefits. But wages are not keeping up with inflation and I'm reaching a point where I have at best £300/month (if I don't put money into savings or retirement accounts, or have zero unexpected spending pop up. Which is a very problematic 'if.').

Trying to get promoted clearly became a no-go (and increasingly, it seems like it wouldn't even be worthwhile - I'd just end up spending all my additional salary on a car payment, insurance, and running/maintenance costs.) Going back to school to try to get the credentials to get promoted doesn't seem to have much point for the same reasons - huge expenditure, little financial gain.

For someone who grew up here that might not be the case, because my supervisors are all only paying about £40 in insurance, supposedly, but as a new driver I was paying 5x as much. I'd literally lose half of any gains getting promoted just in insurance.

And while I like my job, I hate driving. And even if I didn't - driving needs to be reduced as much as possible.

Work from Home jobs are getting harder and harder to come by (which sort of enrages me, because with all the climate change documentation going on and mass extinctions, states around the world should really be pushing for Work From Home where able, as 40% of jobs are administrative and even most jobs that aren't can have 20% or higher administrative work. So if done right, you could probably reduce commuter-related emissions 40-80% at a given time. Maybe even 90% if there were incentives to holiday near home and states embraced 4-day work weeks. It's really frustrating to see that right now, we shouldn't be focused on profit, but sustainability, but the people in charge only care about the former. Which will be a moot point because everything is happening faster than originally predicted.

The fact that I live on an island whose temperate weather depends entirely on the Atlantic current... which is on the brink of collapsing and is now expected to decades earlier than usual... starting in the 2030s... and the government's jobs are mandating Return to Office for administrative jobs... In spite of already having storms that have overwhelmed utility infrastructure and tradespeople - is a testament to this. They are completely invested in delusion and will be waiting until there are mass deaths before they start taking climate change seriously, which is obviously too late.

Heck, Turkey is hitting 50C recently and that is a severe death risk even in low humidity.

Anyway, so rather than just trying to earn as much money as I possibly can like I was originally hoping, my new goal is to try to prioritise reducing commuting and hours (which would allow me to do things like urban farming more too) over raising income. Though both would be nice, I'd rather get a good work/life balance and reduce my carbon footprint.

If I tried a bike again, I could cut the bus mostly (which would also save £65/month) but last time I kept getting busted tyres from debris. I've been debating on it. If I got a job at the place just 3 minutes by bike from where I live, it would be a no-brainer, but three miles is a long way to walk a bike if something goes wrong.




There are other things I need to commit to as well. I'd been on a vegan diet for almost three years but caved a bit whilst in the cast. I didn't majorly crash out - still mostly plant-based, still no red meat - but it hasn't been 100%. Partly because the vegan options where I live are so scarce and I'd been trying not to get food delivered to the house when cooking was a pain, partly because one break is bad luck but two breaks I start worrying that my bone density's affected and I need to re-evaluate my nutrition.

I need to start working on the garden and clearing things out and removing plants so I can work on plants that are good pollinators (like clover) and then when I've got fencing in I want to try growing some of our own food - I think we can get blackberries going in the northwest corner, maybe also strawberries and blueberries. Might be able to get strawberries in the front of the house. Then I'm thinking the southeast side - especially if I can get lighting - I might be able to grow tomatoes and maybe I can get a few planters in for cucumbers and lettuce. If I get dog agility equipment in, I might be able to use the poles for growing herbs and spices. I was thinking it would be nice to get a tree in, but I'm not sure what I'd put in, or where.

Resources say it's better to focus on one crop and coordinate with other urban farmers, but so far I haven't found anyone. So far, it's just amenity gardens. For now I want the ground to be clover and wildflowers for pollinators, any growing plants be for food.

Inside, I'd like to try to make space in the kitchen or boiler room for growing mushrooms commonly used as meat replacements in vegan cooking - Oyster mushrooms, Lions Mane, etc. If I could set up the wall where the burner is now well, I might be able to grow enough to regularly have access for cooking from mostly raw ingredients and canned/dried foods for the rest.




My dad at long last is finally visiting again. Obviously family visits being rare has not been anyone's fault!

There was COVID, which accounts for 2-4 years of not visiting (increased restrictions, and my dad being wary of getting sick).

There was my sister getting stage III cancer, my dad's house turning out to basically needing rebuilt from the ground up because the previous owners withheld information and induced the sale (they found the evidence, but Dad couldn't afford to keep paying the solicitors, so he settled for less than what the solicitor's fees were.) My brother also having polyps. Multiple serious family injuries. My brother's wrongful termination and lawsuit with a big company (and trust, he's had plenty of rightful terminations, but in this case it was all on them - they fired him after approving medical leave for a surgery and then tried to withdraw that approval and fired him when he couldn't go to work... because he was recovering from surgery.)

He should get a lot of money for that - he's got a solicitor with a no-fault, no-fee basis - but there are two main complicating factors:

1. His ODD (and potential borderline personality disorder - our stepmother is an LCSW and strongly suspects this from interactions, and IIRC our uncle has been diagnosed from one of his stints being taken in by Adult Protective Services) history are the main ones. He was offered a settlement and refused believing he should be entitled to much more. Very similar to our uncle that way, that's the defiance and contradictory and argumentative nature kicking in. So he might refuse settlement, go to court against the solicitor's advice if offered a fair settlement, and end up with less or nothing.

2. His wife who it's suspected has similar issues (there is definitely something going on and she is in therapy and on medication for something, but like my brother I strongly doubt this person is cooperative with psychiatric evaluation and care. I doubt they know she uses her children as collateral damage, hostages, and blackmail whenever it suits her to get what she wants, as an example. From everyone I've spoken to, it sounds like she's way more dangerous than my brother has ever been - he's only ever been aggressive, antagonistic, oppositional to perceived authority figures. He's always been very good with children or anyone he thinks needs his caregiving. It's a really sad suspected to be DV situation that the family is still trying to navigate.) Who might be adding additional pressure to not take a settlement and try to get more. Which would backfire because that is no-faith.

You basically have to just hope for his sake, that he listens to his solicitor instead of acting out against his expert advice.




The weird thing is, that money I just see as dust in the wind. I wouldn't have gotten any, but what I mean is, because of my brother's personality and mental health issues, I assume he will blow all that money fast. Like, less than a year. I don't anticipate any long-term benefits from him getting a large lump sum.

What would be smart is investing it in the S&P 500, or buying a house in a cheap state where he could buy outright. My guess is he will buy all-new technology, a car, blow it on gifts, and lose it all in a year or two.




I got so aggravated at some people the other day for claiming ODD is 100% treatable or correctable. Their reasoning was that it's treatable (unless you get late intervention, the parents are fucked up, the system fucks up, or there's another undiagnosed issue).

So my first issue is - that isn't what 100% treatable or correctable means. 100% treatable or correctable would mean in spite of any other issues, the ODD itself would be corrected or treated. (You could maybe get away with that regarding a viral or bacterial infection, or an injury, but when you can't even exactly determine which problems are caused by which psychiatric issue, it's a cop-out.)

Second, - even anxiety and depression disorders - the literal bread and butter of the psychiatric world and some of the most widely successfully treated with the most positive outcomes - is somewhere around 90%. It's completely absurd to claim ODD has more success than depression and anxiety disorders.


I'm not saying most ODD is not treatable, just that it isn't 100% of the time. Supposedly 70% of it is just outgrown at some point through adulthood. But the younger the diagnoses and the more severe or persistent the symptoms, the more likely it will not. PMT can improve likeliness of improved outcomes - that's not a 100% guarantee.

This just gets me ticked off because my parents weren't perfect (some of you have been reading me since I was 15-16 so you know perfectly well they were not) but especially when my brother was diagnosed, there were very little environmental factors:

1. Parents were not cold, distant, unaffectionate.
2. Were upper middle class in most of his developmental life, lived in suburbia.
3. Did not have open contact with relatives that had similar issues (we had one uncle with similar issues who died the year he was born, before he was born. And our other uncle was limited contact.)

Not zero environmental factors, but most of them were out of my parents' control. My first sibling had died of SIDS plus my mother's brother - so she'd had severe traumas the year he was born while she was pregnant. Not a great factor. We were also poor before he was born - but Dad was offered a job elsewhere after our sister's death and we moved to, again, a middle-class neighbourhood with lots of ample resources.

When he got diagnosed, my parents threw all their resources and time on him. Tutoring, coaching in things he was good at, private music lessons, blah blah blah. He also had a lot of favouritism, to be honest, as I wasn't always able to have those things even at a public-school or sport-club level.

Most of the other environmental issues - familial dysfunction - started years after he'd been diagnosed. And even then, they had dropped basically everything to advocate for him, his schooling, etc. They did all the therapies. And my mother (who comes from the side that deals with similar issues) wasn't raising us at all by the time he was in middle school so he had limited interaction with those types of dysfunction.

So I have a special hate in my heart for people who always assume it's the parents or that these things are 100% treatable. Especially when there are studies suggesting there is a polygenetic component that might vary from as little to 30-something per cent to almost a seventy-five per cent chance of it being inherited.

It just sucked, to see my parents through all their time and energy and resources into treatments and therapies, my brother to struggle with these conditions and a lack of self-worth and wondering what was wrong with him, and increasingly resistance to treatment and associating with similar people wherever we lived and the behaviour just deteriorating. And even now when he does randomly feel the need to talk or vent at me, I keep trying to tell him mental health isn't an antibiotic and there's no one-stop solution, so it takes time and trial and error.

But then you have people claiming it's 100% correctable or treatable - and maybe they even think that is helpful so parents and people with the condition don't lose hope - but like. All that sounds like to someone who isn't getting better is that 1. It's something extra wrong with them that makes them different from the majority or 2. It's all everyone else's fault (which just feeds into exactly what you're trying to treat in ODD.)

(Also, to be clear, I never said it was never manageable. Or even not manageable most of the time. I said it wasn't always manageable. Which is true regardless of whatever the fucking reason. I was there, I can't imagine what my parents might have done to manage it better. The dude was antagonistic, aggressive, didn't respond to positive reinforcement, would seek fights, lied and resisted therapy or treatments, and when he got older would seek out people with the same behaviours wherever we were to get around parental supervision and strict boundaries and rules. Dad even moved counties at one point and he just found the same people there - he was someone who kept getting rejected from pro-social relationships because he was vindictive, aggressive, and obsessed with violence. I just don't see what they could have done barred moving to some remote island with no phone or internet. The main thing is, I think if they had listened to me, he might have gotten diagnosed maybe a year or two earlier, because he started aggressing toward and attacking me first - pulled a knife on me when I was angry my sister hadn't done her homework while babysitting and yelled at her about how I was going to get in trouble. But, everyone wrote that off as sibling rivalry, not just my parents. They didn't worry about it until it started acting up at school and with them. And he still got diagnosed in elementary school, actually at the average age. So really... Like what were they supposed to do? They couldn't undo trauma in-utero. Lol.)

I made a Substack

Jul. 24th, 2025 08:52 am
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I made a Substack to talk about my chronic illness journey if any of y'all are interested in following me there:

https://lorrained558511.substack.com/?r=35wee3&utm_campaign=pub-share-checklist

Please, no crossing the streams! Don't refer to me as lunabee34 over there or link to my fandom identity in any way. :)

The highest and sharpest mountain

Jul. 20th, 2025 07:00 pm
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The neighborhood is hosting the 18th annual BurgerFest, where you can get burgers made of gator, ostrich, bison, boar, lamb and virtually anything else you want. Gingko is madly obsessed with it, not just for the free smells and opportunities to make chaos, but also for the adoring masses who all want to know what kind of dog she is and remark on how chill she is. That is a ruse; she is a criminal mastermind and is straining to just go apeshit and devour all the display burgers on counters and the plates of fries little kids are pulling behind them in wagons.

It is making both of us wildly overstimulated, though, and I've spent the whole day trying to grab enough time to write down some thoughts on a show I started last night. It's called Our Generation, and I was only going to watch it because the leads are both fantastic — they have fabulously intense, deliriously delightful chemistry both in real life and in their previous project, The Princess Royal. I love a costume drama, but I don't so much care about youth dramas, and I fully expected this one to be sort of sentimental and sloppy, to be honest.

That's my prejudice against the genre. It's — incredibly moving, beautiful and unsparing. Everyone just calls her Cherry. )

It's on Netflix, for those who don't have Viki. I've only seen three episodes, but it's made a huge, strong impression on me. Even if you don't like youth dramas or realistic shows, this one already seems many cuts above. It's also only 24 episodes, versus the usual 40, so it's not as heavy a lift. I will be watching it for a while, probably, and thinking (and hopefully writing) about it for a long time.
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I have felt good enough starting last weekend to finally start trying to get caught up on everything. The cast doesn't come off until Monday, but I've started working on my IMDT course (Learning, Motivation, and Reinforcement). I think considering I'm in the cast I did pretty solid. I posted to social media some of my first dog-walking client's photos and video. I'm less worried about that because I'm not really trying to become a 'professional' and more of just a hobbyist that maybe gets enough work to subsidise my dog sports with my own dogs.




I finally pulled the wallpaper stripper out and I've removed almost half the wallpaper in the sitting room. It will need a lot of cleaning down further. The floor's a mess - I wasn't worried about the 50-year-old carpet. My plan is to get hard floor installed anyway, preferably a pet-safe flooring. I'm thinking recycled netting for the carpet by Sedna. It'll take ages because I'm waiting until I can feel confident I can install it myself (I am consistently doing more of the housework than Patrick, which I expected, but so far that is including house modifications. It's irritating when I have something like a broken bone going on, but then, I've been borrowing money from the shared account while I'm struggling to cook. I did way better than when I broke my humeral head but I still get tired and irritable trying to cook and clean so I've been eating too many take aways.)

Anyway, that's okay because we're going slow. For this room my goal for now is:

1. Get the walls stripped of wallpaper and clean the walls.
2. Update the sockets in the sitting room - I want to get double sockets with USB connection.
3. Repaint (technically we also want to replace the doors and frames, and install shutters. But extra paint will let us fix that later.)
4. Media wall/bookcase.

Rinse and repeat for the entryway, stairs and landing (except we will want to be moving the entryway - installing a frame/door so the burner room and kitchen are together. That way when we convert to heat pump or GFCH or whatever, we can turn the burner room into a utility/dining area.

Then we'll be doing it for each room. Patrick's room is more urgent because the wallpaper and plaster situation in his room is not looking good (and his closet area needs TLC.) I basically just need to remove the wallpaper, update the sockets and light fitting, get shutters in. When we've converted to Heat Pump or GFCH the water tank will be removed. Then I can turn the wall by the door into a bunch of additional closet/storage space.




I am so desperate to get this cast off.

I have an announcement to make

Jul. 18th, 2025 09:48 am
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I am not old or fat. (Well, I am, but the doctor doesn't care LOL).

Instead I have ankylosing spondylitis and am starting a different anti-inflammatory med than the one I've been taking. If that doesn't work, then I'm switching to a self-injectable biologic. I got the impression that the doc would really rather just start with the biologic, but insurance has to be shown that the cheaper anti-inflammatories are not effective.

I am so relieved. I'm really sick. It's not in my head. I'm not lazy or making it up. A doctor believed me and found out what is wrong. I am being given treatment.

I am so grateful.

I've been so depressed because I thought I was never going to get help, and I haven't been taking care of myself. Doing so didn't feel like it really mattered if that makes sense. I'm going to take this as an opportunity to make some changes that I know will help with my mental and physical wellness because it feels like it matters now.

Thank you all for your support on this journey.

OMG I am so tired

Jul. 16th, 2025 04:27 pm
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1. I have been attending a conference this week that starts at 4:30 in the morning because it's based in the UK. Sunday night, I didn't get any sleep because I knew I was going to have to get up at 3:30 to make that first day welcome, and I did that whole stupid day-before-school thing where you can't sleep in anticipation. Then Monday night, I went to bed at 8:00 and slept like a baby until 4:00. It was wonderful. Last night, though, I woke up at 2:00 with the worst burning pain in my thigh. I've had neuropathy before that feels like burning, but it's always been mild and brief. Y'all, this was excruciating; it literally felt like my leg was blistering up in a horrible burn. Fortunately it quit after a bit, but my leg still feels weird and like it might start doing it again at any moment. :(

2. My appointment is tomorrow with the rheumatologist, and I am so worried I'm not going to get any help. Especially if I'm going to start feeling like I'm burning. I have an incredibly high pain tolerance; I can deal with join and muscle pain. I cannot deal with this burning shit. It hurts so bad in a way I can't handle. :(

3. I gave my paper today and it was well received. The chair of my panel, Andrew King, is one of the foremost Ouida scholars, and he introduced me as a serious Ouida scholars in a worldwide context, and I have a hard time knowing if he really means that or if he is just being his delightful, gracious self (the imposter syndrome is real, y'all), but it was a really nice thing to hear even if it's not exactly true.

4. Weird thing: so one of the online conference attendees had her son with her watching the presentations, which is totally fine; he was attentive, and he asked a couple of questions at two panels and was respectful and observed conference etiquette (even if his questions were not good; he's 11; whatever). But then, she was on my panel, and she involved her son in her presentation. It was on Catherine Wells and her rather fraught marriage to H. G. and how he was kind of a dick, and she had her son read several quotes at different points during the presentation. He had a very tiny Oliver Twist more-gruel-please voice and was wearing a newsboy cap. I can't decide if this was cute and precocious or really inappropriate. It certainly was weird and out of the ordinary. LOL Dylan thinks I'm being judgmental. But like, my academic peeps, this is totally weird right?

I'm back to save the universe!

Jul. 14th, 2025 09:35 am
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I AM 41.

I AM EMPLOYED.

I HAVE A NEW BIKE.

For real!!

So much has happened!! Things are very good right now! Kpop Demon Hunters holds up well the second time you watch it! Gingko defended me/picked a fight with three asshole dogs behind a fence and is very proud of herself and her battle scars! I am publishing a story either this week or early next week that will make absolutely everybody mad, so I need to figure out how to protect myself on social media! I was finally able to BUY NEW BRAS and I hope they fit???

But yeah... yeah! Birthday last week was really excellent! I have a full-time job now, and it started last week! I have been sleeping so much since that started, just because I think I've been holding a decade's worth of stress about where my next paycheck is coming from and now I just... get to stay. (It is journalism and it is public media, so no, the guarantees are not 100%, but it's an amazing group of people who absolutely adore me and I'm on the softball team and I tested out my biking commute yesterday and it is less than half the time it takes on public transit! Imagine getting more than 15 years of workplace trauma healed with one gig that appreciates you and fights for you!)

I'm just very excited about things now. I'm watching a lot of decent/fun TV (mostly cdramas; League of Noblemen, A Dream Within a Dream, The First Night with the Duke, The Blood of Youth). I finally deep-cleaned and organized my kitchen so that I'm able to cook again, which I did this weekend, hurrah! My DnD party is confronting our Final Boss, and my beautiful dumbass tiefling monk took down the first of the three dragons we'll be fighting. Summer in Chicago is very, very good! I am eager af to make art and write fiction and play music again! Do all these exclamation points sound deranged? I'm just. Very happy right now, and I will ride it out as far as I can! ✶